Charles

Having fever,sore throat and flu for Christmas was no joke. Sorry that I couldn't entertain most of you guys and that the party wasn't as expected. But I hope you guys had fun? Thank you for all those who came though.

Just as I wanted, I'm going to master how to play the PS3. Whoever is coming my house again, we're gonna have a match man. I'm pretty on it. But my brother is being anti-social with playing with me. And I don't think panadol work any better than just sleeping to cure sickness. I ate 6 panadol and look at me, I'm suffering more. 

You know how when sometimes you're so cold and you shiver unconsciously, you cannot control it? Be in my shoes. I was tortured throughout during mass. 

I hate the fact that every breath I take, I cough miserably.
I hate the fact that it's raining but I'm feeling so warm.
I hate the fact that it stopped raining but yet I'm shivering.

I'm-just-staring-blankly-on-my-computer-screen-that-I've-nothing-to-type-so-I-decided-to-type-this-out.

I woke up coughing bacteria out and hearing how wonderful my mom is.
 C: Sir gave the girl $150 for the party later.
 M: Really? You give me the $150. I keep for her.
The next thing I know, my $150 is gone and is never coming back.

Party planning kills the healthy cells in me and form bad ones. Buying presents yesterday was the worst. I had to stand throughout journeys feeling faint and wanting to sit down. Priscilla, I know how you feel. Now that I remembered, I think I'm going to add Lemon in my shopping list. Just in case anyone is drunk and I'm left dying to drag them to a proper bed.

25TH, 2.30AM, MY HOUSE.

I can't emphasize much how poor I am in this state. Not literally poor in $$$ but poor in everything. Okay that doesn't make sense.

Sound Series was pretty alright. My throat is dying, the feeling of having fever is here. Priscilla is finding her frog prince badly that she's giving away $50. Anyone wanna bet that she won't even give the $50? Finding $30 now for her is already pain in the ass, what more $50. Priscilla, action onlyyyy~

Waiting for breakfast to arrive is killing me. I'm hungry and i'm tired. Yesterday night was bad. Haven't felt like I couldn't sleep for hours in a long time. I'm pretty sure that 5AM, I'm awake. I've watched Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2009 the other night and I'm amazed. I used to hate myself for having funny hips but while watching, I've realized practically half the models have the 'ugly hips' that I hate.



Christmas is coming and I'm not yet in the mood to celebrate. Party plans are pretty screwed up but I guess that's how life goes. Just as you wish, a lot of people are following the trend. Nearly everyone of my friends are 'fishing' for the right time and right moment. Me? I think i'll hold on a little longer. I realized that everyone is either a player, flirt or major asshole. If not, they're just too good that I can't believe it. Is God playing with my feelings?

You eyes says in all,
From what you want to what you need.
I hope it's not lies that you required,
Because this is not what I desire.

risk, chance, uncertainty, unpredictability, precariousness, instability, insecurity, perilousness, riskiness, probability, likelihood, danger, peril, threat, menace, fear, prospect, possibility, imperil, jeopardy, hazard, gamble. Scratch that.

“I’m not in love with you. But you make me smile. You make me laugh. You let me be myself. You make me open up to you without even trying. You make my head turn to see if you’re around. If you’re not, it makes me sad. If you are, my heart beats a little faster. You make my Mondays feel like Fridays. You make me sing in the shower. You make me notice the littlest things. And you make everything around me matter just a bit more.. ”

— If I were to write a love story #33, inspyrred@tumblr.

 

I don't show it. nor do i tell you. But God damn, i really do miss every beautiful aspect about you.

After a post full of angst, I realized there's more to everything.

Elbow-ed at AVA set. Fell down during AVA set.
Touch blank blank blank.

Elbow-ed during Sound Series.
Knocking Marilyn's head.
Thought blank blank blank was friggin' cute(Everybody thinks the same, so I'm not a flirt)
Thought blank blank blank was screwed. (F-A-I-L-U-R-E)
Someone insulted my favourite band.
Someone sang much better after that.
Felt thousand and one blank blank blank.
Priscilla was fucking happy.
Felt weird/wrong/bad/guilty for something.

And all in all, the most torturing and painful part was, my eye capillary burst.
But still, that's not stopping me to hear Bad Romance on repeat mode.

You were as great as what I thought,
But never knew that it could been better.
The distance between us are fairly far,
But this feels like it's hard to settle.

The look on your face was hard to tell,
It was something like you've never sell.
To betrayed your body, your words your heart,
I could feel your love from the start.

To solve the problem I had earlier on, there's only two answer to it.
'Be A Self-Starter'
'Get Along By Getting Along'

 OMG and almighties took a pic w the charming handsome awesome pastor prince. :-> andddddddd.... niko intro-ed us to him. i shook his hand (!!!) i was thinking " LAURA WHR R U MAN PP SHAKIN MAH HAND" THEN HE SAID MY NAME WAS NICE WHOOO (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

THANK U EVERYONE & THANK U JESUS!
today was gr8 , rlly. had a gr8 time.everyone looked so pretty and handsome! uhm thankz everyone for the presents love u all frm the bottom of my heart :-> had din w my level3 lovelies @ old airport road! they all wanted to go here go there , they ended up going to gideons house , but i didn’t! took a nice long ride to tpy w some dude zephaniah and mel chu. O and had a rather good talk w chj before that. hmn i kno god’s working up a change inside of me and i’ll only get thru this stronger , i will not give up giving it up! i mean it this time , amen